I have four days until my competition and I’m a little freaked out.  Just a little.  I keep worrying about two things in particular. One, that I’ll fall down on stage.  I normally wear clunky grandma shoes not 5 inch heels.  I’ve been practicing walking and posing but not nearly enough.  And two, that the back on my suit will come unglued and I’ll be walking onstage with a rhinestone wedgey.  Not pretty.  

The last few days I’ve been stoning my suits.  I started off planning a simple design and of course I got carried away.  So now I’m going to have this crazy blinged out suit, as if I’m some sort of pro, on this soft still-a-little-jiggly body.  It’s actually a bit embarrassing.  It just seems SO AMATEUR!  :)

I really can’t believe I’m going to do this.  I take a flask with me to the beach because I feel self-conscious in my swimsuit.  Not really.  About the flask.  I do usually feel self-conscious on the beach so Saturday is going to be a stretch.  But whatever the outcome it has totally been worth it for reasons beyond vanity.

Thanks again for the many words of encouragement.

xoxo
j